A Most Wanted Man

Hii..its been a very hard week for me..with the kind of work i do..im totally exhausted.
But its good that i have resumed my habit of reading...as i am a bit too much into watching movies...it is like addiction..
My last book is A Most Wanted Man by John La carre.
It was very nice for me reading a full book after a long time..and i loved that and enjoyed the feeling to the fullest. But the not so best part of it is that as i feel that books do express their feelings to us, this book did not show me nice feelings as i moved on towards its end.That was really painful.
I guess , by now ive started to confuse you too.. please let me explain.
Firstly.. when i say books do have feelings and they do express them. I mean it.
This is because whenever i start reading a book, i just like to complete it. Nothing else. No more feelings.
But as i go through the book..it starts talking to me. Its characters start talking. Their feelings affect me. In total, the book's feelings affect me.
And this book, said me..'Ok. i know its enough for you ,so leave me.' I had this strange but sure feeling that it is telling me not to proceed towards the end. This was when i am somewhere near 240 or so. It was a 340 page book and respecting its feelings(:p) i left it for a couple of days and again it is sunday..and i could not resist myself , so i started to read it again..Guess what!! It is a trajedy. And i always hated them.
Bad Endings..Unhappy Endings...for me.i feel these are disturbingly powerful. i hate them for the impact they leave on me. I totally move into a sad mood. And i start thinking a lot about things like, why did it end that way, what if things happened the other way, what if they(the characters) behaved other wise..and all the hell.

After finishing the book, i am almost struck with all these thoughts for a while..mostly for a day i think...
and then i started thinking in a different way..how difficult it must be for the author to captivate all those feelings, & pain and present them so beautifully to us.I guess if he is a man of heart, he must have suffered a lot to feel and write that pain. The way he executed the emotions of people, the way people respond under different situations , the kind of respect, love and gratitude we feel for people unknowingly. the way we get attached to people. the way our heart makes its own way into competition , into life among hard core brains..
thats it.. I just say wonderful execution of plot with a German scent.

Something like Intro

I am new to all kinds of writing till date. Everything i have written is either for exams or for my personal diary. But being the good and vivid reader that i am, i thought i can try this one(blogging) too.
I always liked being the silent girl, the invisible one. But now that i am starting to write this blog, i know that sometime or later people are going to see my posts or writings. And so this is my attempt to introduce myself properly. Somewhere within, i still wish to be that anonymous person and i may not go public about this blog anytime sooner. I think you have already started noticing the conflicts that hovers over my thoughts. That is exactly what i am. "A Confused Soul". And this place is where i choose to let my confused thoughts flow. In fact, this is going to be a place filled with all kinds of ramblings that i offer and a place where i can afford to let out things that i may not be able to reveal directly.

And when it comes to the real intro, i am a simple South Indian girl who loves reading a lot. Its not just books that i am interested, I read everything starting from blogs, articles, newspapers, comics and what not. Also, i love watching movies and some nice TV shows. These are the only things i do whenever i am free and i never ever get bored doing these. I am a computer science graduate and luckily landed up in a job right after college. Its been one year since then and i hated my job infinite times in this one year but i respect the job for the economic independence it gave me and the confidence it gave me is worthless. I am now working in IT and i never dreamed of me being able to settle in a job like this. It just happened.
And when it comes to my family, it is nothing but any regular Indian middle class household with working parents and two calm kids.

That's it for introduction i suppose. Bye. Have a nice Monday.