My Posts : My Thoughts

I do not post regularly. But i do write regularly. And i do save my writings on my notepad and whenever i find some time i start to upload things.
But rarely do i find something that can be posted. I donno about any standards. But looking at people and their wonderful blogs, i feel very nervous while posting my things. But i just hope, someday i will turn out to be competitive enough for others.
My confidence levels with writing are very low. But im trying atleast. Staying anon helps me a lot.
And also i love writing. i mean the normal..pen,paper & Book one. I love it. And i prefer pencil to pen always. I donno if it is somewhere related to psychology. But i love writing with pencil. I go on end less. Some time later, i will try to copy my thoughts from my book to this place.
I just think they are much better than this ones. But may be they are not and this is just my feeling. :)
Ohk..Whatever. Im happy being able to post things this way. Work is good these days. And when i say good, i mean less. So yayyy..i get more time to read, think and then of course to write. :)

Love..
Yours Truly.

Pursuit Of Happyness - 2 :) :)

One might wonder, what is all that blabber in my previous post about and why is it vented out so.
The only reason is that i wanted to write something and i just watched a movie.
Many people in the world must have watched it. And many said, it was an awesome movie. And it made them cry.
One of my colleagues suggested this movie saying that this was one movie that made him cry.
And i managed to watch this one recently. And thanks to him, i kept thinking that about what must have made him cry.
I was continously guessing through out the movie. May be i might have missed the real beauty of the movie thinking all these.
And i was also thinking about some reasons that i could explain why the movie did not make me cry.
And in this attempt i may have really lost the nerve to cry.
But despite all the thought and everything, the movie managed to make me cry..or i should not say cry..the movie managed to get some tears out of my eyes.
This happened in the very last minute of the movie and for that 2  minutes of emotions i became a fan of Will Smith forever.
The Movie is "the pursuit of happyness" .
Everyone has their own reasons on why this movie made them cry.
Well, i had my own one. But it is not poverty that struck me. It is not his need or want for a better life that struck me.
Because i just finished reading Angelas's Ashes by Frank Mccourt. It is about a Irish boy and his life..It is the author himself.
Any one who had an idea about the book would know why poverty or need did not strike me.
It is the happiness in his eyes after he achieved what he wanted that struck me.
This revealed one more aspect of my mind. I not only fear about failure, i just love every single moment of happiness.
May be this is why i never feel sad for longer periods. A feeling called sad is always momentory for me.
Even pain is momentory for me. My mind has this wonderful gift of moving onn.
It loves happiness so much that it cannot stay in a sad mood for long. See that is one lovely thing about my mind.
And coming back to the movie, it is really happy to learn that the movie is inspired from a real life story or should i say,
a real life highly successful story!.
And it gives throws light on the fact that happiness is to be pursued.
And creates a ray of hope to every one who is in the pursuit. :)
I am sure i will be coming back with a full post on Angela's Ashes soon. Hoping a wonderful Day to you all.
Love
 :)
 

Pursuit Of Happyness :)

Some people say they watch movies to pass the time.
Some say they watch movies for pleasure.
Some say they find happiness in movies. Some find lives and livelihood out of movies.
But i always think..what do i get from movies ? And to make it clear here it selves, i do not know what is that i get by watching movies.
I never knew the answer. I always wondered what my reason was.
Sometimes i think it is the pleasure, the happiness i get out out of them.
Sometimes i think i learn something from them.
Sometimes i think they give me confidence to live and never did i think that they are just some sort of things that are watched for passing time.
I am never a cry baby. Even when i feel hurt even when im in pain and even when i fail.
I never cry. it is so rare that i cry and it is even rarer that people see me crying. I never do that in front of people.
And me being that, do you think i would cry watching a movie ?
Logically, i should not. But taking my love for movies into consideration, i should.
Yeah..so the chances are equal. 50-50.
But the thing is there are very less number of movies that make me cry. I donn even find any pattern or similarities in movies that make me cry.
I just cry when the movie touches my heart.
If the same movie does not make me cry for the second time, then it must be the moment that made me cry not the movie.
I may be weak at that particular moment and so i could not stand upto that emotion. i could not hold upto the standard of that emotion.
And i just break at those certain times. people cannot break me so easily but movies can.
A powerful movie with great things in it can make me cry even when im at my best, strongest. And it will continue to make me cry everytime i watch it.
And in my weak moments, some powerful emotion is enough for me to cry.
I just said that people cannot make me cry. But it is not the complete truth.
I say this because,it is the people in the movies that make me cry. People with their strong emotions make me cry.
I generally hate a tragedy either in real life or on reel.
i cannot stand when a person breaks. when their heart breaks. when they could not bind their emotions.
I hate to see people losing everything. And that is the only common thing i find in the movies that made me cry.
And this explains a psychological part of me. I hate losing anything. I hate the fear of losing anything.
I hate me for having that fear. Every moment i try to get rid of that fear.
But i fail altogether because it is this fear that makes me move forward. that helps me achieve better things that i can hold on to longer.
People say, it is the sole aim of your life to know what you are meant to do and to achieve it is to be your life time goal.
And i get to meet some thousands of characters, though fictional through movies. And i love to watch them. Listen to them.
Laugh with them. Cry with them(though not everytime). Love with them. And get something from them..i.e understanding them.
Every good movie helps me think and it helps me go a bit ahead in the process of understanding me a bit better.
Thats it. And this is what i get from movies. And this is why i love movies.
This is why i get this unexplainable pleasure whenever i watch a good movie.