Gopaala..

Being a student of the Aurobindo Schools, i inherited the love towards krishna. And i believe in the concept of unconditional love. And this is one such lovely song for the Lord. I donno who the true owners are but for sure they must be very passionate and lovable enough to create something like this. Will surely find one nice translation for this and post it. But for now i cannot stop myself from posting it.

doobuchulaatelara gopaala naa manasanta neevenuraa

doobuchulaatelara gopaala naa manasanta neevenuraa
aa yeti gattunenadiga
chiru gaali naapi ne nadiga
aa yeti gattunenadiga
chiru gaali naapi ne nadiga
aakaasaanadiga badule ledu
aakaasaanadiga badule ledu
chivariki ninne choosa
hrudayapu gudilo choosa
chivariki ninne choosa
hrudayapu gudilo choosa

naa madi neekoka aatadu bommaya
naa madi neekoka aatadu bommaya
naakika aasalu verevi levayya
yeda lolo daagadayya
nee adharaalu andincha raa gopaala aa
nee adharaalu andincha raa gopaala
nee kougillo karigincha raa
nee tanuve ika naa velluvaa
paalakadali naadi naa gaanam
nee vanne maaraledemi
paalakadali naadi naa gaanam
nee vanne maaraledemi
naa yedalo cheri vanne marchuko
oopuri neevai ne saaga
pedavula merupu nuvu kaaga cheraga raa

gaganame varshinccha giri netti kaacchavu
gaganame varshinccha giri netti kaacchavu
nayanaalu varshincha nanetta brochevu
povunakane nee matama
nenokka strii ne kadaa gopala
adi tilakincha kannulle levaa
nee kalale ne kaadaa
anukshanamu ulike naa manasu
are mooga kaadu naa vayasu
naa oopirilona oopiri neevai
praanam ponikunda yeppudu neeve anda kaapaada raa

Thoughts about the title

It is funny that i choose such a name for my blog post. I just wanna write here about the path i followed to make this post.
Firstly, there is a fellow blogger who is pretty new to blogging but is really good at it if he continues it. His first post was so inspiring and i should say wonderful. And so i commented in his blog saying that he should continue writing as he proved out to be very good at it. But guess what, for a long time there was no reply. I have even made it a habit of checking his blog for his posts. But he did not post anything else for months. So i subscribed for a newsletter of his blog and stopped checking his blog. And then that being my secondary mail ID which i do not check very often, i almost forgot about it. So one day i opened it to check my mails again. Guess what, there are some 5 mails from the blog. 2 for new posts, 1 for a comment and 2 are his responses to my comments. And those responses were awesome. He said my comment made him smile and also said that my comments helped him in some or the other way from not stopping blogging. And he thanked me. I felt, WOW. Today, i felt like reading the mail again and thought ‘if i could help him, can’t i help myself ?’ Why am i starving for motivation. Don’t i have enough reasons to feel motivated ? So thought about writing something. And this something, i have no idea what it should be. So i just opened my blog. When i read the title of my blog, i could not remember why i thought to use such name for my blog. Then i googled my blog name just out of curiosity for some likeminded people. And it returned me some of the most interesting blogs ive ever read. After going through all those blogs for a while, i felt the need that even my blog needs some attention of mine. Some thoughts of mine to be spread out. Afterall, it is the only thing in the world that i love to do unconditionally. Then i found an answer to my question that, it is because i knew about the wonderful journey of these thoughts inside my little brain, i named my blog a Journey Of My Thoughts.
So i do love to let the words in my brain flow through my heart. And hope to continue this wonderful journey as long as i can.
A big thank you to that blogger because of whom all this started. And you know, you made me smile today .

Birthday Week

"This week", I will be remembering how this week has been to me for years from now. And i am very sure about it.
This is a week with my birthday, AJ's last day in office, my mental & professional transition.
My birthday and me being with my family is the only nice one among these.
May be, my transitions may prove out to be useful to me in future. But still, at the moment they caused me lots of pain. And even the birthday thing also didn't go off well as expected as i fell sick.

First, it is AJ's last day. Some GB's of my brain's memory and some 3 to 4 pages of my diary are already filled up with this topic. So i choose to speak very little of this one, though it has affected me a lot.
AJ is my colleague of 1 year 3 months. That day when he joined, i never imagined that this cute harrypotter's resemblance from my offc would make tears roll out of my eyes on his last day at offc.
Even on the day we went to SouthAfrica together, i never had such ideas.
15 days together in Joberg, helped me think that he is a nice guy with responsibilities and respect.
30 days together in Joberg, made me think that he is one of the rude guys ive ever met but still a good one.
60 days together in Joberg, made me think that he can be so cold at times yet friendly & warm.
I felt a connection with him. He is just like someone i know. He is exact the same as my baby sister.
After coming back, we were never that close. Infact, i had several issues with him. Mostly attitude issues.
But the last 5 months were different. He became our lead. Yeah, he was that efficient. Though we had a cold war between us, we never fought in the open. But still, i am surprised that i didn't even feel a bit of jealousy in me when he was made the lead. Instead im happy that his effort was recognised. Then, he started helping me. May be he thought of it as his responsibility as a lead. But im surprised that he stayed late when i had a delivery on my neck. He bugged consultants offshore to help me clarify my doubts that are beyond his knowledge. He injected his knowledge into my brain. Though slowly, i gained a lot. All the time i knew that i stopped working on my own and started depending on his brain for the most silly things. But still, i felt that working with him was a great learning experience and it was. In the process, i donno when i became his friend. Though we fought over some issues, I considered him a friend the very day when he cared about us in Joberg.
And now, if i cannot hate a person who's my enemy..how can i like the life when i lose a valuable friend.
I hear many people saying that, love care respect gratitude are some feelings that needs to be shown. But i donn believe in it. Sometimes you just know that they care, they need not show it all the time explicilty.
This is one such guy. For the friendship & care, out of deep respect and gratitude, i miss him.
I donn talk to him all day. But his presence fills a confidence in me.
That day a July 13th when it was his last day, tears rolled out of my eyes. Ive been controlling myself all the day. That day i know, you need not be the best of friends or be crazily in love to miss someone or to feel tears on your cheek. You just need to respect them from your heart.
I still remember the day when he said our boss before we were leaving to SA, that he had 3 sisters and he knew how to take care of us. Whether he knew it or not, he clearly stood by his words.
Thank You for everything AJ.

And then, with AJ leaving the place i am the only one left who can nearly reach him. This may help me in my career as i get to move onn and scale up without depending on someone. I am just motivating myself, balancing my breath, holding my nerves and gearing up for my future projects. I have many things to do on my mind. And i donno where all these transitions and realisations lead to me. But i welcome all those.