"This week", I will be remembering how this week has been to me for years from now. And i am very sure about it.
This is a week with my birthday, AJ's last day in office, my mental & professional transition.
My birthday and me being with my family is the only nice one among these.
May be, my transitions may prove out to be useful to me in future. But still, at the moment they caused me lots of pain. And even the birthday thing also didn't go off well as expected as i fell sick.
First, it is AJ's last day. Some GB's of my brain's memory and some 3 to 4 pages of my diary are already filled up with this topic. So i choose to speak very little of this one, though it has affected me a lot.
AJ is my colleague of 1 year 3 months. That day when he joined, i never imagined that this cute harrypotter's resemblance from my offc would make tears roll out of my eyes on his last day at offc.
Even on the day we went to SouthAfrica together, i never had such ideas.
15 days together in Joberg, helped me think that he is a nice guy with responsibilities and respect.
30 days together in Joberg, made me think that he is one of the rude guys ive ever met but still a good one.
60 days together in Joberg, made me think that he can be so cold at times yet friendly & warm.
I felt a connection with him. He is just like someone i know. He is exact the same as my baby sister.
After coming back, we were never that close. Infact, i had several issues with him. Mostly attitude issues.
But the last 5 months were different. He became our lead. Yeah, he was that efficient. Though we had a cold war between us, we never fought in the open. But still, i am surprised that i didn't even feel a bit of jealousy in me when he was made the lead. Instead im happy that his effort was recognised. Then, he started helping me. May be he thought of it as his responsibility as a lead. But im surprised that he stayed late when i had a delivery on my neck. He bugged consultants offshore to help me clarify my doubts that are beyond his knowledge. He injected his knowledge into my brain. Though slowly, i gained a lot. All the time i knew that i stopped working on my own and started depending on his brain for the most silly things. But still, i felt that working with him was a great learning experience and it was. In the process, i donno when i became his friend. Though we fought over some issues, I considered him a friend the very day when he cared about us in Joberg.
And now, if i cannot hate a person who's my enemy..how can i like the life when i lose a valuable friend.
I hear many people saying that, love care respect gratitude are some feelings that needs to be shown. But i donn believe in it. Sometimes you just know that they care, they need not show it all the time explicilty.
This is one such guy. For the friendship & care, out of deep respect and gratitude, i miss him.
I donn talk to him all day. But his presence fills a confidence in me.
That day a July 13th when it was his last day, tears rolled out of my eyes. Ive been controlling myself all the day. That day i know, you need not be the best of friends or be crazily in love to miss someone or to feel tears on your cheek. You just need to respect them from your heart.
I still remember the day when he said our boss before we were leaving to SA, that he had 3 sisters and he knew how to take care of us. Whether he knew it or not, he clearly stood by his words.
Thank You for everything AJ.
And then, with AJ leaving the place i am the only one left who can nearly reach him. This may help me in my career as i get to move onn and scale up without depending on someone. I am just motivating myself, balancing my breath, holding my nerves and gearing up for my future projects. I have many things to do on my mind. And i donno where all these transitions and realisations lead to me. But i welcome all those.
This is a week with my birthday, AJ's last day in office, my mental & professional transition.
My birthday and me being with my family is the only nice one among these.
May be, my transitions may prove out to be useful to me in future. But still, at the moment they caused me lots of pain. And even the birthday thing also didn't go off well as expected as i fell sick.
First, it is AJ's last day. Some GB's of my brain's memory and some 3 to 4 pages of my diary are already filled up with this topic. So i choose to speak very little of this one, though it has affected me a lot.
AJ is my colleague of 1 year 3 months. That day when he joined, i never imagined that this cute harrypotter's resemblance from my offc would make tears roll out of my eyes on his last day at offc.
Even on the day we went to SouthAfrica together, i never had such ideas.
15 days together in Joberg, helped me think that he is a nice guy with responsibilities and respect.
30 days together in Joberg, made me think that he is one of the rude guys ive ever met but still a good one.
60 days together in Joberg, made me think that he can be so cold at times yet friendly & warm.
I felt a connection with him. He is just like someone i know. He is exact the same as my baby sister.
After coming back, we were never that close. Infact, i had several issues with him. Mostly attitude issues.
But the last 5 months were different. He became our lead. Yeah, he was that efficient. Though we had a cold war between us, we never fought in the open. But still, i am surprised that i didn't even feel a bit of jealousy in me when he was made the lead. Instead im happy that his effort was recognised. Then, he started helping me. May be he thought of it as his responsibility as a lead. But im surprised that he stayed late when i had a delivery on my neck. He bugged consultants offshore to help me clarify my doubts that are beyond his knowledge. He injected his knowledge into my brain. Though slowly, i gained a lot. All the time i knew that i stopped working on my own and started depending on his brain for the most silly things. But still, i felt that working with him was a great learning experience and it was. In the process, i donno when i became his friend. Though we fought over some issues, I considered him a friend the very day when he cared about us in Joberg.
And now, if i cannot hate a person who's my enemy..how can i like the life when i lose a valuable friend.
I hear many people saying that, love care respect gratitude are some feelings that needs to be shown. But i donn believe in it. Sometimes you just know that they care, they need not show it all the time explicilty.
This is one such guy. For the friendship & care, out of deep respect and gratitude, i miss him.
I donn talk to him all day. But his presence fills a confidence in me.
That day a July 13th when it was his last day, tears rolled out of my eyes. Ive been controlling myself all the day. That day i know, you need not be the best of friends or be crazily in love to miss someone or to feel tears on your cheek. You just need to respect them from your heart.
I still remember the day when he said our boss before we were leaving to SA, that he had 3 sisters and he knew how to take care of us. Whether he knew it or not, he clearly stood by his words.
Thank You for everything AJ.
And then, with AJ leaving the place i am the only one left who can nearly reach him. This may help me in my career as i get to move onn and scale up without depending on someone. I am just motivating myself, balancing my breath, holding my nerves and gearing up for my future projects. I have many things to do on my mind. And i donno where all these transitions and realisations lead to me. But i welcome all those.
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